February 2012
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So many things are falling into place that they cant simply be coincidences! Sooooo excited! :))
January 2012
10 posts
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You sang my black and made it Blue
You painted me in melodies
So I would get lost in the corners of your song,
And so viciously trapped me between the meetings of your lips,
And took from me the colors I’ve hidden ,
very deeply beneath my bitten fingernails,
And out they came, pouring out of you.
But they were mine, I could have sworn it,
You sang my black
and made it Blue
“I think sometimes you like living within my brain. Very often, I find you there,...”
– sandrahanna
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It’s visible to see
that I’ve become the rising
…in your pants.
Have you ever wondered what it was like
to be castrated?
“You never realize how loud your thoughts are
until you try to silence your...”
– sandrahanna
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So many words I’ve left unspoken but,
they have found a grave within each tooth.
So many thoughts to torture heart with,
confusing ones own fabrication with the truth.
And dripped out from one ear- to ear;
left to right.
(Within the darkest hour of the night),
my thoughts snatched my very nerve and
behold another restless night, took flight,
and waved as it left with mother Worry
to remind...
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there are some nights that you simply cannot stand
when everything is a harsh rust over the steel dusk
there are some, dark and empty, that wont give you even a simple star
leaving you dazing at a blackened sky;
and abandon only echoes of silence for you to scrape for yourself,
but sometimes, we need those nights
for our thoughts to remind us of who we are
and who we once left behind.
there are...
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Thank you to everyone who read my work!
you all are amazing.
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I want more than anything...
I want more than anything
to be your breath
the fingertips that reach for glorious things
the curl in your lip
the freckle on your back
I want more than anything
to dance within your ribs and
take the place of your heart
red and shining
to become the ground
cold and reaching for the soles of your feet
when you rise in the morning
reaching for your soul
when you first leave warm...
December 2011
17 posts
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I don’t need
a tattoo to feel the
carvings of craving
written against my skin.
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I Am The Cinder
I am the cinder
that has learned how to
keep my fire quietly within my stomach.
I have watched bits of me
flake and shake within the turning wind
and wished I didn’t give myself so freely to
the world and yet,
remembered that learning comes from my regrets,
black as coal and flaking on the greedy Man’s fingers.
And still there lies a fire to beget,
moving but quiet along
the lips of Forgiveness...
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today just seems like
one of those nights.
where the air feels colder than it normally does
and i can feel my bones crammed within my skin
within a frame and forced to form the patterns of myself
tonight is just one of those nights.
the kind when the humming of the air singing to the trees
can no longer sing me to sleep
but instead
shake me with it’s haunting
and manifest within...
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december
I hide the deepest forms of me, beneath
my skin, my heart, it is singing lullabies and reminds me
these things are hidden within me for a reason, perhaps, the same reason that
my brain hides within my skull
My thoughts, silenced, December and it’s memories, the argumentative
charades, the cool breeze to freeze my heart like onebigredicicle.
Little drops of letters slip through the cracks of...
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Today,
I looked at my body
for the first time with new eyes
that didn’t judge or pick
or evaluate or examine
or desire to change or alter or control.
I honestly felt like I truly loved myself
for the first time,
Simply because.
and that was enough for me.
“My heart is so small
it’s almost invisible.
How can You place
such big...”
– Rumi, My Heart is so Small (via aurelle)
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Sitting in an empty parking lot listening to the rain beat against the frame of my car may very well be my favorite sound.
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He re
Is
A :)
S m i l e y
“You can love a girl without knowing anything about her. You can love her because...”
– cute!
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i need
more than
you could hold
when youre
arms are stretched
embracing the cold
chasing dreams
you somehow
gave or
sold
while confusing the shining
of gold
to mold.
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Today was a great day.
God has a way of telling me I’m beautiful. :)
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We’ve betrayed the earth
We’ve betrayed the earth
Scarring it with our purple waste and
pretend that we are making it green,
(with our technologies and our machines)
Building what we want to exist
Forgetting that with the same hands
We sculpt buildings, and mold the frames of
Intricate ticking delicacies
We create happiness, we sign respect
We hold safety in our palms and give it
when we hold doors or yearning...
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and there was one.
you were my best friend
Becoming both my love and life
Reminding me daily of dreams
That one day I would be your wife
Thought we’d hold this love forever
saying we’d only do things together
But chose this road all alone
And alone you shall become
So glad I escaped before the day
When you and I are already one
you lost me now, the words are said
I learned about the lies you fed
To have your pie and...
November 2011
11 posts
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I looked up at the sky and whispered, "thanks".
God shows you certain things and even if you don’t want to see them, you know it is because He is looking out for you. I am so grateful for everything He gives and everything He takes away. I’ve lived and seen a lot of terrible things but through every instance, my eyes have been shielded from the disasters that distort the mind. I am strong and through my heart, God pumps courage...
“We die to each other daily. What we know of other people is only our memory of...”
– T. S. Eliot (via troubled)
(via youcansleepwhileidrive)
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Body Image
I opened the medicine cabinet because I could have sworn you were staring back at me, again
Trapped behind the cabinet but all I found were empty bottles and prescriptions
Brushes and lashes, lipstick, washes, and lap dances
But you couldn’t dance your way around the idea that you were only following the
trend, the tiles that lead to your bedroom
cold cold granular footsteps when you should have...
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Rudyard Kipling "If"
If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you; If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too; If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or, being lied about, don’t deal in lies, Or, being hated, don’t give way to hating, And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can...
“Life isn’t about finding yourself. It’s about creating yourself.”
– George Bernard Shaw
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There is a small whisper
Inside this stomach of mine
That twists its way around
Every curve of my spine
And yanks and pulls at the edges of me
To see how long it takes until I fall apart
There is a little sleeping whisper
That kicks as though it’s grown quite large
And it shakes in my belly to
Remind me that it’s in charge
Whenever I think of your face
I don’t know whether I should laugh or...
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Waiting
You should have called me when you had the time but I’ve grown days listening to the stir of the wind instead of your voice. He has hushed my tears from falling and made sure the pillow rested perfectly below my head. I’ve gotten used to his quiet thrill and have loved the way he cared for me completely, promises unbroken. But you, you have broken far too many and only cared about the ways I fit...
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inspire.
acquire.
aspire.
admire.
and when it’s all over,
take a breath and
retire.
October 2011
16 posts
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“Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
...”
– Psalm 139: 23-24
“When life gives you more than you can stand, kneel. “
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I need better friends and genuinely good people in...
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There lay love
Last night, I fell asleep in God’s bosom
I felt His arm below my chin and as He
scraped years of worry from my brow
Warm, as eyes fell heavy,
I had prayed for sleep, finally
And there He was holding me
With the same weight he holds the world
There lay night’s last tears
There lay deep shallow breaths
There within glorious palms etched with beautiful psalms lay
Yawns, and mooneyes, and invincible...
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“God is hidden behind every letter of the bible.”
– I heard this spoken to me and I was moved and empowered by it.